I am caught up in so much classwork and it's been a challenge because we have found our spare time limited throughout most of June for various reasons. Regardless, I am very happy to find myself at Day 98. I am thankful for so much of these past days and as I look closer and closer at my approaching Day 100, I feel so good to have come this far. It has helped writing each and every day. Some days, particularly early on, I think the writing saved me from getting into too dark of a place, mentally. Even when I don't have much to say, writing each day to check in with myself has been a really healthy step for me and has helped support this journey. I highly recommend it to anyone who is trying to begin their sober journey. It doesn't have to be anything profound or world-altering every day (or at all). Even just "I feel like crap" or "What an awesome day" has helped me process and move along and be successful (so far). Handwritten, typing, journal, blog, anonymous, whatever works for you. I have found that, for me, I am less self-conscious when I type vs when I write by hand (although I have always longed to be a handwritten journal kind of person....it seems so much more romantic, but I just never stick with it...and I have come to accept that this IS working...)
Just wanted to mention also that I attended a wedding today- no reception for us though because of our little guy and the time. It would have been nice to attend my first sober wedding reception, but hey, another time. I will hopefully have a long life and many more receptions to attend and enjoy sober. The wedding was really lovely by the way (when isn't a wedding lovely?). In the old days I probably would have been focused on the stress and longing for a "relaxing" drink after the hubbub. I am finding that I am getting closer to the person I want to be now that I have eliminated alcohol from my equation. I still have a really long way to go, though. Let me keep learning, keep building my patience and love, and keep riding steadily on this sober unicycle.
I feel the same way, steadily moving forward, still trying to get to where I want to be. It is like a nice long bike ride. I picture the first part was hilly, hard then easy, hard then easy, now it's a flat cruising but the end isn't in sight yet. Not even sure where I am headed but just enjoying the wind in my face and looking forward to seeing where this path ends up!
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