Such a hard day. A bunch of crazy things happened and were super tough to deal with. Found myself wanting the escape of alcohol. It really must have its claws in me. I felt myself whispering all about drinking, in my head. Drinking to cope. Drinking to ease the darkness. Yet..it passed. It truly did. I heard the voice. I understood why it called. I felt like giving in to it in some ways. Then I thought about how much I didn't want to drink. How I wanted to be a clear, sober presence. How I have made myself accountable to a few people. And the voice just..disappeared. And now I have no desire to drink. It's a good feeling. Riding along here. Still much to learn. Keep going. Life is good. Hard. But good.
You can do this.
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But we can say, Not Today!
xo
Wendy
Thank you so much, Wendy. Not today- such huge small words! Such a wise, approachable, cool way to think about things. I am so sorry I missed your 600th day by the way; your post got buried in the few blogs I subscribe to. I just wanted you to know how truly happy I am for you! :)<3
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